… should be exciting, right!? It kind of was at first.
While I was studying at Rutgers my parents often asked me what I wanted to do when I graduated. I would always get frustrated and tell them that I didn’t know. On several occasions they asked me why I was even going to college and that frustrated me even more. I really didn’t know exactly why I was in college. All I knew was I needed a bachelors degree to get any job that I would be proud of.
I started working my current retail job in February of 2008. I was on my way to my third promotion and signing up for the next semesters classes. I had been pushing for this promotion at my job because it was something completely new and challenging. I was so excited when I got it. I wanted to do an internship, keep my job, and take additional classes all at the same time. The internship required 24 hours per week and my new promotion required 24 hours per week. There is no way I could have done both and taken classes. I chose the job.
I started dating my college boyfriend right before my first semester at Rutgers. He was studying Finance at Rutgers School of Business and he always put school before me no matter what. I quickly realized how important school was to him but I never really understood. For me school was school and all I wanted to do was pass. We stayed together beyond graduation and we both helped him search for a job. Since he had a clear career choice I felt like he should find a job and then I’d look for a job in the same area. He finally got a job (it’s who you know not what you know) and we were going to move to Jersey City. I put in for a transfer to a New York City store (by this time I was on to my fourth promotion and working full time) and we signed a lease for a tiny apartment in downtown Jersey City.
That’s when I finally realized I was miserable.